((looking through dark rings))

mourning.ruby

2006-07-08T00:29:00.000+08:00

mourning.ruby

to.answer.some.ponderings,

yes,i.am.stilll.grieving.

no,i.would.not.do.anyfing.stupid.

i.am.still.me.at.e.moment.

thank.you.all.who.gave.condolences.

bless.

fast.forward.and.e.long.awaited.pause

2006-06-23T20:10:00.000+08:00

fast.forward.and.e.long.awaited.pause

wahey.

here.is.an.updated.entry...(finally?)

i.wouldve.blogged.about.sumfing.other.than.what.went.on.with.life.
but.heh.
i.know.you.rather.read.on.e.latter.

WORK

wow,great.
a.likeable.bunch.of.managers.and.colleagues.
still.can't.believe.my.luck.at.landing.this.job.
i.actually.go.to.work.very.willingly.
and.heyheyyy.
i.am.Staff.of.The.Month.
(smug)
here's.e.picture.i.gave.my.manager.to.be.put.up.for.display:

"Staff.of.e.month...A-ha!"

injected.some.of.my.humor.at.work.
hee.

err...
other.than.work?
still.working.on.lyrics.for.one.song...darn.hard.song.to.write.
hoping.to.finish.it.by.this.week..
HOPING.

i.wanna.get.a.haircut,but.later.right,got.this.LEESA.right,say.i.copycat.
so.we'll.see...hekhek.

i.really.thought.i.had.so.much.to.blog.about...
and.when.i.finally.have.time.to.blog...
blogmind.is.blocked.
(lame.pun)

taa

i'll.be.back

2006-06-16T02:46:00.000+08:00

i'll.be.back

i'll.update.later.

taa

teary.laughter.and.e.ambivalent.farewell

2006-05-25T02:59:00.000+08:00

teary.laughter.and.e.ambivalent.farewell

e.one.in.pink.is.SHEEREEN.
my.gf.of.coming.8.years.now.
in.case.u.are.a.newcomer.to.my.blog,
gf.as.in.friend,grrl.friend.
no.lesbo.intentions.

anyvays.

she's.off.to.Dubai.at.e.moment...
officially.3.years...for.work.
i.didnt.fink.i.would.be.this.affected...
but.hugging.her.really.was.a.tearjearker.

"mmm...you.smell.good" she.said.
"really?" i.replied.
this.convo.happened.amidst.hugs.and.tears.

so,Naat, just.us.now.huh?

Shee, ur.absence.makes.me.realise.that.i.love.you,beb.

bless~

new.sparks.and.blasts.from.e.past

2006-05-18T20:31:00.000+08:00

new.sparks.and.blasts.from.e.past

well..well.
why.have.i.been.NOT.blogging?
-8am.working.shifts
-housework
-birthday.partee
-band.session
-rap.session

yep.that.about.sums.it.up.
work.is.going.well.
even.went.to.a.workmate's.bday.partee.at.east.coast.park.(which.was.funfunfun)
i.can.definitely.say.this.is.e.best.choice.of.job.ive.ever.taken,by.far.
good.managers,mostly.good.workmates.

band/rap.sessions.
e.recent.band.session.was.quite.fruitful.
happyhappyhappy.
rap.session.was.a.good.one.too.
gawd...
can.i.finally.say...
I.AM.BUSY?
haahaa.

well.enough.of.my.past.schedule.

for.e.randomness.part.of.my.entry...
i.present:

e.Piper.Family

as.in.Peter.Piper.e.pickled.pepper.picker,
and.Pipe.Piper.

one.'s.a.liar(where.e.pfft.is.e.pickled.pepper???)
and.e.other...
a.paedophile.

taa

light reads and e secrecy-WHAT-secrecy?

2006-05-07T00:23:00.000+08:00

light.reads.and.e.secrecy-WHAT-secrecy?

"eh.aku.tak.baca.berita.ah.smlm...kau.ada.suratkhabar.smlm.tak?"

"alah,Berita.Harian.ada"

-in.reference.to.how..is.Berita.Harian.actually.yesterday's.news.
maybe.should.rename.it.Berita.Semalam.

"your.vote.is.secret"

-but.e.voting.cards.are.with.serial.numbers.

and.oh.

feel.free.to.voice.out.opinions...
but.you'll.be.sued.

taa

great.aroma.and.e.whiff.of.money

2006-05-03T18:44:00.000+08:00

great.aroma.and.e.whiff.of.money

i.am.so.sorry.for.e.stagnant.blog...
i.have.been.busy.
i'll.be.sure.to.update.when.i.really.have.time.to.sit.and.blog.

taa

blog resurrection and e temporary oxygen

2006-04-24T14:11:00.000+08:00

blog resurrection and e temporary oxygen

i wonder how many people missed me...
did YOU?

anyvays...
contrary to some people's belief,
i am not bumming.
all i do everyday is not "habiskan mak punya beras dan bapak punya duit".
i believe even some working people are still asking parents for money.
so you didn't care to ask before what my daily routine was...

and anyvays, i am working already hence late bloggings.
so you didn't care to ask, so now don't ask where i work at.
on to e next topic then.

ohkeh.
last Saturday i went to an ex-ITE mate's engagement ceremony.
nice to see ol' acquaintances around...
except one.
just e one whom i have so much dislike for that i never thought possible.
who felt she had e right to touch my shoulder that day and give a remark about
how sihat i look.
and i let her know how much right to do that she didn't have by giving her a
"was that a voice i hear?" look.
any other action/statement would just be disrespectful to e ceremony.
yep, it takes love to hate.
she was what i thought of as a friend...i pathed my suicide.
so now just as i'm trying to forgive, she further cemented my heart.
why am i telling you all these?
because i honestly tell you i have never hated anyone before in my life.

on a lighter note,
e engagement went well.
Congratulations, Srinie!

haaks.
my entry seems like..angered and shiet eh?
jgn tripping arh?
blog wot...
you like wot all these personal shiet people post up...
yeh, occasional general information is good reading,
but who can resist reading personal information? GREAT.
can you resist that diary on e table?

liar, haahaa.

Mandai.experience.and.e.tiger.which.WHOOSH

2006-04-11T01:33:00.000+08:00

Mandai.experience.and.e.tiger.went.WHOOSH

i.went.to.e.zoo.earlier!
currently.mentally.tired.to.blog.much.
but.here's.something.overheard.while.in.a.bus.nearing.e.zoo:

"eh.imagine.eh.if.a.tiger.escapes...(pointed.to.e.bushes.beside.e.bus)WHOOSH!"

taa

like.bingo.and.e.relevant.randomness

2006-03-26T22:46:00.000+08:00

like.bingo.and.e.relevant.randomness

a.light.read
was.reading.e.newspaper.a.few.days.back.
found.out.about.this.new.shuttle.
that.carries.transit.passengers.between.terminals.at.Changi.Airport.
to.be.opened.for.function.next.year...
and.it.is.named:
people.mover.system

yay.
now.even.males.shall.experience.e.pms.

on.a.serious.note
earlier.this.morning,there.was.a.biathlon.death.
SAF.
he.was.participating.in.e.race...
and.collapsed.600m.from.e.finishing.line.
pronounced.dead.upon.arrival.at.e.hospital.
death.
we.never.know.

back.on.a.lil.lighter(pun.not.intended).but.also.serious.note
"u.go.grrl!".to.e.character.Erlin.montel...
when.she.slapped.that.playboy.Bard.after.he.toyed.with.her.
and.after.he.accidentally.revealed.he.was.a.hypocrite.
that.he.thinks.she.should.look.in.e.mirror.before.daring.to.date.him.
ONE.FOR.E.BIG.GRRLS!

but.today.turned.out.bad.
so,
how.do.you.apologise.for.a.wrong.you.did,
when.you.tried.apologising.for.other.wrongs.before,
and.your.apology.was.scoffed.at,
but.you.cannot.not.apologise,
because.you.know.it.is.your.fault,
and.even.though.you're.frustrated.at.e.thought,
that.your.apology.will.be.scoffed.at.again,
you.still.know.you.gotta.apologise,
even.though.e.person.is.not.perfect.either,
and.sometimes.wronged.you,
because.by.right,
you.have.to.be.e.one.to.give.in,
and.by.choice,
you.want.to.make.it.better?

friendly.addiction.and.e.wait.for.mySoldier

2006-03-26T02:53:00.000+08:00

friendly.addiction.and.e.wait.for.mySoldier

well.
i.read.about.myZodiac...yeh,i.still.read.zodiacs.for.e.fun.of.it.
but.i.absolutely.dont.know.all.zodiacs...as.in.which.day/month=which.zodiac.
or.what.each.represents.
well.
anyvays.
i.was.reading...it.was.like...3.weeks.ago.
"...a.new.presence.would.suddenly.be.in.your.life.and.it.will.be.the.start.of.a.new.bond."
i.was.like...ouh,exciting.
didn't.fink.much.of.it.

"hello!!!"
"hi!!!"
"finally.eh.get.to.chat..."

well.that.wasnt.exactly.how.it.went,i.cant.recall,but.well,sorta.
anyvays.
great.chat.
led.to.great.chats.
then.a.good.meeting.
then.a.bad-day.made.right.

(mdis.goodie.bag.quite.good.weh...went.to.e.open.house)

and.voila!
tonight.i.realised.that.this.was.e.so-called.new.bond.
an.ol'.acquaintance.turned.new.friend.
well.i.dont.know.yet.if.this.is.just.a.sudden.explosion.that.will.die.in.smoke...
but.i.reckon.it.be.here.for.a.while...
friendly.addiction.

a.friend.that's.helping.me.through.e.wait.for.mySoldier.
and.hopefully.won't.go,"so.ditching.e.friend.once.e.bf.is.back?"

HOPEFULLY,a.friend.who.wont.turn.out.to.be.just.an.acquaintance.

taa
aRt.i.weendoo.you

sacred.pin.and.e.breach.of.debit

2006-03-25T03:36:00.000+08:00

sacred.pin.and.e.breach.of.debit

B.U.L.L.E.T.I.N
ohlryte.
i.read.this.from.msn.news.

then...
credit.card.forgery?
now...
DEBIT.card.forgery.
yep.

CitiBank.released.statements.about.a."third.party.retailer".making.a.big.boo-boo.
well.they.didn't.exactly.mention."boo-boo".
but.you.know.what.i.mean.larh.eh.
and.so...

there.are.unofficial.debit.cards.in.e.hands.of.criminals.right.now.
and.all.they.need.to.do.is.find.out.what.your.pin.number.is...
and...
VOILA!
instant.paid.item.
so.debit.cards...credit.cards...whatever.it.is...

BE.CAUTIOUS.
even.e.cashier.might.be.on.to.somefing.

btw.this.is.currently.happening.in.Canada,UK.and.Russia...plus.US.

taa

e.revelation.and.e.ambivalent.realisation

2006-03-23T01:04:00.000+08:00

e.revelation.and.e.ambivalent.realisation

e.guys'.grrl/e.grrls'.guy.

wtf.

e.idle.

wtf.

e.nerd.
e.chinky.
e.whatever-larh...nabei.

till.e.day.comes.

some satisfaction and e tummy fest

2006-03-21T23:28:00.000+08:00

some satisfaction and e liquid fest

what went on?

-Mardan Mamat was e first Singaporean to have won Golf Masters

-A Neo-Nazi activist converted to Islam

-PLACEBO would be playing in Singapore at MTV Fashonably Loud this Thursday, Ngee Ann City

-went to An Barney's birthday pit but didn't eat much 'cos i talked 'till i was full

-met e miLkboei and BOY, did we drink or did we DRANK?
(f.y.i: sugar cane juice, bandung, strawberry smoothies, green tea, hot chocolate, macchiato and mineral water...didn't even had any meal)

...

WATCHED V for Vendetta.
no shiet?
one of e best films of e decade.

fenk you, mySoldier.
geez, my favourite food now has gotta be em Thaksin Beef Noodles.(besides Tong Seng's Sliced Fish of course,hee)

SHEEREEN!!!
is a very good friend of mine...
and she's leaving.

(ambivalent about your trip.)

and.e.reason.was.all.of.you

2006-03-11T17:55:00.000+08:00

and.e.reason.was.all.of.you.

thanks.to...
leesa.iska.naat.shee.ali
and.2.other.friends.who.wont.see.this.online...
and.e.KELUARGA...

fenks.fenks.fenks.

watch.out.for.e.next.one...!
bless

and.e.reason.is.you...

2006-03-11T00:32:00.000+08:00

and.e.reason.is.you.

13.hours.to.go...

whoopeedoo!

e.instant.recipe.and.e.dish.of.Saturday

2006-03-09T01:30:00.000+08:00

instant.recipe.and.e.dish.of.Saturday

e.lessons.have.ended...
so,taa...teacher.

how.would.i.know.a.sudden.decision...
...would.be.an.opportunity?
geez.
it's.been.so.long.since.i.last.presented.to.e.public...
and.now.in.a.field.i.never.thought.i.would.be.in.
used.to.always.go..
"wow...she.can.play.that"

Saturday.would.be.a.chance.to.be.proud.or.hide.

sorry.that.e.posts.have.been.boring...
just.not.that.expressive.at.this.period.
cos.in.spite.of.e.happiness,sadness.befalls.

he.can't.be.there...

p.o.p

2006-03-06T00:40:00.000+08:00

P.O.P...

so what gitu loh.
you still take him away what.
you still require him to report in smartfore/smartfour/pls correct me, what.

blah

dishy options and e plate of opportunities

2006-03-05T13:23:00.000+08:00

/dishy options and e plate of opportunites/

Career Fair was an eye-opener.
"gawd...i wanna take this...oh damn...that seems good too"

i left feeling rejuvenated and giddy.
rejuvenated by options, giddy by choices.
media.teaching.design.

help.

glad i went to e fair.
prolly one of e better decisions i made in my entire life.
which is but just 20 years.
anyvay...
i was watching TV, e news...
don't mean to be political but people are speaking against P.A.P nowadays weh?

i fink they're bored of e same party winning everytime.
others say there must be oppositions so as to weigh e pros n cons of different opinions.
some even say their vote won't matter because usually it's a walkover.
i don't know.
geez.
almost reaching voting age, and i am still ignorant about political issues.
how e poot am i supposed to help make a decision?

btw.
apparently my johari/nohari window is stagnant.
so i give up asking.

what else eh.
hmms.
my posts are getting boring nowadays.
why...?
blogger's block.

or prolly i am just too excited/nervous/stumped at e thought of this Saturday.
help.

taa

evil.

2006-03-05T00:35:00.000+08:00

EVIL.

what.that.stepdad.did.to.e.lil.3.yr-old.girl.is.evil.
sick.
...

constipated.blog.and.e.template.change.frenzy

2006-03-02T01:49:00.000+08:00

blog.is.giving.probs...
so.just.bear.with.e.absence.of.tagboard.and.links...yeh.

as.i.said.in.previous.entries,
you.can.entertain.urself.or.ur.lovely.pandafaRt.here.by.doing.those.johari/nohari.window.thing.
do.one.for.ur.own.too,why.not?

bless!
taa

strawberry pancakes and e myOriginal longing

2006-02-27T22:08:00.000+08:00

hallu.

changed my template again.
comfy with this...simplicity.green.
anyvay...
in addition to humoring me by doing e johari/nohari window thing (you can find e links in e previous entry),

one more humor please?

as you can see, no tagboard yet.

so please treat e comments board as e tagboard.
cmon', don't be lazy now.
it's nice to have responsive blogreaders, innit?

so, yeh... much fenks 8)

i can't live without you
Oh shut up.
so cliche, maybe fake even, for most of us.
can die meh?
a tip: say something like,
i CAN live without you

...but i don't want to.

but if you use this line, please, top it with real sincerity.

last but not least,

myOriginal Lineup
i miss you.

taa~

'issing.letter.and.e.not-quite.spacebar

2006-02-27T03:10:00.000+08:00

hey.

i.a-.using.-y.dad's.laptop.at.e.-o-ent.and.e.spacebar.and.e.letter.before.N.as.in.L-NOP,is.faulty.

get.it?

oh.well.
anyvay.

dee,fenks.for.-issing.-e.
i.was.just.being.angsty...young.ones.
btw.i.fink.u.put.e.wrong.link.to.ur.johari.window.thing.
i.could.view.it.before.i.did.it...no.fun.already.
shldve.put.e.name=.link.instead.of.e.view=.link.larh.
don't.know.larh.if.u.actually.prefer.it.like.presently,then.ouhkeh.lorh.

well.i.dont.know.what.else.but.e.in.thing.now.is.e.friggin.johari(sapa.sak.eh?).and.e.nohari.window.thing.
so.just.hu-our.-e.larh.eh?

http://www.kevan.org/johari?name=pandafaRt
http://www.kevan.org/nohari?name=pandafaRt

and this day comes.

2006-02-23T15:08:00.000+08:00

hey.

well, here i am.
obviously i am not very missed, but what e heck.
a few good ones can surpass any many.

hey hey!
on a lighter note.
actually, no.

i suddenly realise how NOT me this blogskin is.
it's lovely, yes and very posh.
but i am not.

so prolly i'll be changing again.

to Hidayah: i'll link you up when i change my blogskin ohlrytey.

taa, people.

'till that day.

2006-02-15T23:58:00.000+08:00

i will make my escape from home...

i'll be bloggin' when i be bloggin'.
take care of you.

goodbye, my lovers.

diabetic scare and e other Body talks

2006-02-15T14:21:00.000+08:00

hey.

so many good things are happening for me at e moment that...

it's scary.
being in e rut breaks you but you'll climb up for e hope of a better future.
but savouring e sweet treats only makes you wonder after much later:

Will i get diabetes?

what e pan i'm talking about?
i mean, here they are, e good events of my life.
suddenly jumping queue to reach me at e same time.
and i am feeling ambivalent.
grateful yet frightened at e same time.

Ya Allah.

well on a more informative note:

Tonsil Tennis
i read something in e paper today, about kissing multiple partners.
this entry is based on a true article.

intense kissing multiple partners can cause inflammation of e brain(meningococcal meningitis) and infection of e blood(meningococcemia).

doctors advise to reduce e intensity of kissing in addition to not having multiple kissy fits to help e vaccine work e cure.

A.K.A Tadpoles
Harvard Medical School has discovered a main mechanical component that enables sperms to "swim" faster to reach e awaiting ovum(egg).

e chemical reaction can cause e normal speed to one that is speedy.

a protein found to be at e tail of e sperms is e reported key factor to this event.
it is called CatSper1.
their hope is to help impotent males with this new discovery.

No Laughing Matter
Bird flu virus needs only 2 more mutations before it would evolve into a world epidemic of disease that can easily be infected between humans.

pray for good health.
bless~

btw i have a new pet, its name is Poot.

chocolate caramel and e lapis cake

2006-02-13T20:35:00.000+08:00

gee.

i am such a sucker for e Lapisans.
gigi lapis.

Chinese males looking hawter eh nowadays?
haa haa.

i haven't eaten e chocolate you gave me, Sheereen.
anyvays.

not much to type about today,
i am out of theories at e moment.

but i hope you guys have watched e MediaCorp Radio ad.

e Rocks meets Classical one.

e hairy-armpit-curly-haired guy who played the ethnic instrument.

blardy funny okeh.

especially e part when he was so engrossed in playing it that his head was slightly shaking.
hee~

cream peaches and e succulent gurgle

2006-02-13T00:41:00.000+08:00

hey.

so well.
what happened?
went my ol friend's 21st birthday celebration.
so lovely to catch up and just fill each other in on life.

so lovely to see Sheereen all excited about her stewardess dream.
and very amusing to see a clumsy Naatasha.

afterwhich i went to beetchslap mySelart, myChongFun and Cannonball at e airport.
plus saw an ol' acquaintance, who commented i looked great.

HE COMMENTED I LOOKED GREAT.

haa haa.
okeh sorry, back to Earth.

we MarryBrowned and Starbucked e night through and bade farewell to 12 February 2005.

BTW.

i watched Casanova on Saturday night.
please don't ask whether it is good or not.

what i can tell you is there is a lot of talking.

but e talking enticed me.

and Heath Ledger's voice was oh-so-lush that i really do believe he IS Casanova.
kinda like, succulent gurgle sounds...ouh.

Casanova left me feeling romantic and poetic...

cream peaches...

but one word of advice.
do not watch it with for girls: your boyfriend/for guys: your girlfriend unless you know for girls: you're/ for guys: your girlfriend is strong enough to resist Casanova.

'cos i have been talking about Casanova non-stop to mine.

hee.

taa~

alhamdullillah.

2006-02-10T15:55:00.000+08:00

free-thinkers say, why need God?

if we study, we pass.
if we work hard, we succeed.
we take care of ourselves, we won't fall sick.
we stay more alert, we won't be careless.
we look out, we won't be in an accident.
and it goes on.

but if our mind suddenly had a mental blockage?
what if we suddenly fall sick?
what if...
somehow...in our ego quest of intelligence, we flopped?
what if we can't explain what has taken place?

i know Allah s.w.t helped me through.
even tho' i had forgotten Him for so many years.
even tho' i lacked to seek Him for guidance in my past.
i haven't fallen from His grace,
and i am thankful.

for i freakin' passed.

heebie jeebies and e pitter patter day

2006-02-10T14:11:00.000+08:00

hey.

before i start yakkin' my today entry,
just wanna fill u in what happened on Monday, 'cause i said i would update.

1) i was maluated (read:embarrased) plus at e same time smittened by my teacher
(what teacher? now that's another story)

2) i was treated to a Swensen's lunch of Black Pepper Seafood Pasta + Frosted Chocolate Malt
(i did take pictures but... i would have been NASTY, just nasty to post it here)

3) i was given a very belated but very longed for gift

nos. 2 + 3 were fulfilled by e same person but i told this person i don't want to reveal e identity as it might call for shouts of favouritism and envious jealousy.
thank you, YOU!
hee.

okeh.
hey have you guys seen e advertisement for tonight's Ch5 movie, Frozen Impact?
caught e tagline that's said?
"when HAIL breaks loose"
corny sia...
e movie's about a town bombarded by a hail storm.
hail = batu-batu kepal (read: ice/snow balls as hard as rocks)
so they thought it's funny larh, maybe...
when hail breaks loose = when hell breaks loose

sounded like e commentator has a short tongue.
hee.

my sinus is still here to stay.

i seriously don't know what to type today but well, it's a Friday and e weekend is here!
so let's start e weekend and end this entry with a joke:

A blonde was driving past a wheatfield when she saw another blonde trying to row a boat amidst e field. She stopped e car.

Driving blonde shouted from across e field: "Hey, why are you rowing a boat in here?"
Rowing blonde: "They told me it's an ocean of wheat, so i got a boat"

(ocean of wheat = a term for abundance of wheat)

e Driving Blonde shook her head and shouted angrily:

"It's blondes like you that give us other blondes a bad name!"

e Rowing Blonde kept on rowing.

This agitated e Driving Blonde further.

"If i knew how to swim, i would've got there and slapped you on your face!"

nyeh.heh.heh.

taa~
(p.s: again i extend this offer; want to be emailed e caricatures of Nabi Muhammad s.a.w to evaluate e seriousness of it? just holla)

my boyfriend's (gonna be) back!

chendol abstain and e sinus inflicted crisis

2006-02-09T14:11:00.000+08:00

e blogskin won't load up.
i'll give it a few days.

no show?
change template again.

guess e only template for Blogger you can trust is Blogger's.

sinus crisis and e chendol flavoured muck

2006-02-07T15:08:00.000+08:00

hey.

first up, to Mimi a.k.a Sir Azmi.
fenk you for e advice.
but i fink you've misinterpreted my entry larh.
e whole point of e entry was to point out that although i am not e most committed of lovers,
but i am not a cheater either.
although i am unsure of e future, i am hoping now i am living my present right.

ouhkeh?
hope i got that point straight across now.

and i have got a friggin' sinus.
if you don't know what it is:
just imagine you're having flu.
mucus right?
all runny right?
imagine e mucus is stuck in ur nasal passage, where u can neither blow nor (euw) swallow.

yep.
jiraztating (this is a hybrid word i got from someone)!

btw.
i had a very surreal day yesterday.
kinda...
hee.
Moomoo *wink
Leesa *wink
more about it either later, or tomorrow.

News that made me read:
1) Offensive caricatures, no let me put it as just caricatures as obviously Nabi Muhammad s.a.w is not to be pictured and now what more OFFENSIVE, by Denmark
p.s: i have e copies, holla if ya wanna.
2) 13 tarantulas found in SG in less than 2 weeks
3) Man who plotted airplane crash into Changi Airport is now in Singapore's custody

dark house & e cold depression part II

2006-02-04T23:36:00.000+08:00

hey again.

i did go out to Starbucks...so okeh larh.
but a question nagged in my mind.

"do you think he is e one?"

i often get that question.
but somehow today it stuck itself.

how do i know if he is e one?
isn't that our job to make someone THE one?
to make us THE one for that someone?

no?
another question.

"do you think he's the one you're settled with?"

how do i know???
e world is vast, and so are options.
all i know at this point of time is he has done no wrong and so i will do him none.

if he does wrong, if it is forgiveable, i would forgive.
then again, what is forgiveable and what's not?
how are we to know, 'till e deed really is done, that we can forgive or not?

so what i am saying here.
right now i have a boyfriend...
but it doesn't mean i am married.
and tho' i say i am not married...
it doesn't mean i want to cheat on him.

taa.

dark house and e cold rain depression

2006-02-04T18:12:00.000+08:00

hey.

it's a Saturday and i am home alone.
no plans.
no friends.
no boyfriend.
no family.

only PC???

do i have a life or do i have a life?
but i am not depressed, actually.
just bored larh.

that's it.
grabbing my book, i am going out.

taa!

tabung amal and e 50c donation

2006-02-03T17:42:00.000+08:00

Coffee, Tea & Theories
finally, this gets in e papers.

i was very amused at a Feb 2nd '06 article in The Strait Times' Urban section.
at first i was alarmed upon seeing e large related picture.
but when i read e headline?
i knew i was in a for a good read.

"SETTING MOONS"
"Butt cracks are everywhere with the popularity of low-rise jeans. And Hazel Yong discovers, men find them an u g l y sight."

haa haa. guess what e picture showed? well i call 'em tabung amal (read: charity box) 'cause they show it all for free!
but wahey, there's a new term. Setting moon. haa haa.

"Breast cleavage? Sexy. Butt cleavage? Definitely not. Both men and fashion stylists say that the sun should set on women revealing their butt cracks."

and they would sing, "don't let e sunnnnn...go down on it...yeeeeay.."
let's see what the opinions were.

"I wouldn't mind butt cracks if there are no dark creases (euw?) at the top and part of a cute round butt. But more often than not, they are actually eyesores."
"Mooning happens so often these days it seems jeans makers lowered waist lines for women to save on fabric (haa haa)."
"But it becomes scary when i see over-hanging hip flesh, butt crack and ugly underwear simultaneously (God help us)."
"...an insult to both fashion and people who have to face the wearer's bum (damn right!)."
"..don't bother to adjust their jeans or pants when sitting down, thinking it's their individual style (blah)."
"But the look is so vulgar. It's not sexy at all unless you have something going for butt cracks."
(damn right again)

haa haa. ehem. can't help myself.
well, here are suggestions for you or for whoever you know who absolutely can't stop wearing 'em low-rise jeans:

1) choose the right cutting to minimise exposure
2) wear longer tops, or conceal crack with a thick belt
3) invest in thongs with nice designs
4) denim and lycra hug body in right areas, concealing love-handles and butt cracks

if all fails, just be more conscious when sitting or squatting down.
(which means to say TAHU MALU larh sikit/have a little DECENCY.)

but this deserves to be highlighted BIG + BOLD:

"No one deserves to look at an UGLY CRACK after a long day's work."
or any day, for that matter.

this has been another session with pandafaRt.

chocolate chip and e bittersweet symphony

2006-01-31T23:37:00.000+08:00

hey.

Wyteboard celebrated it's 2nd anniversary yesterday.
e actual date is today, but due to commitments, we forwarded e celebration.

turkish food+sandwiches+wack bowling alley+cake
+missing members+sick me trying hard not to be sick

equaled to e celebration @ ECP.

that aside, i am grateful we are now where we are, 2 years of friendship.
tho' amidst e smiles, e laughter and e lame jokes, something was wrong.

maybe due to missing original members, Cannon + Blackbear?
maybe.

maybe something else?
i don't know.
all i know is, 2 years we've stayed and still going.
happy 2nd anniversary, Wyteboard 8)
"when Wyteboard strikes, prepare to be erased! Rub sama dia!"

more pictures in Wyteboard's Friendster

and now, something i read in e NewPaper, and so i quote:

I am thankful:

For the wife who says "it's hot dogs tonight", because she's home with me, and not out with someone else

For the husband who is on the sofa being a couch potato, because he is with me, and not out in bars

For the teenager who is complaining about doing the dishes, because it means he/she is at home, not on the streets

For the taxes I pay, because it means I am employed

For the mess to clean after a party, because it means I have been surrounded by friends

For a lawn that needs mowing and windows that need cleaning, because it means I have a home

For the pile of laundry and ironing, because it means I have clothes to wear

For the clothes that fit a little to snug, because it means I have enough to eat

For weariness and aching muscles at the end of the day, because it means I'm capable of working hard

For the alarm that goes off in the early morning,

because it means I am alive.

Selamat menyambut 1hb. Muharram 1427

plane gazing and e bitter tasting truth

2006-01-30T01:37:00.000+08:00

it's been 5 days and i am still getting e jealousy-over-meeting-Ari.
hee.
sorry ladies.
to miLkgrrL & lil babe: don't be jealous i didn't hug him or anyfing, hee~
to moomoo: hot in real life? hmmmmm. aww cmon need u ask? nyeh, hee~
to all of you: he was with his girlfriend and just for your information, i am not crazy over Ari. i am crazy over Teuku Ryan. Ngerti nggak? hee~

went to e airport earlier.
(i miss Leesa suddenly)
just for e heck of it...
with myaRt.8)

STATUE history:

Created by artist Chieu Shuey Fook(oops) using 38 000 coins of different currencies from 23 countries accumulated from a Community Chest (with permission, of course) and bought at an auction for charity at a whopping price of $100 000!

see it @ The Viewing Gallery, T1.

but actually what i really feel like blogging now is how affected i felt later at night.
when...

A mutual acquaintance of ours came up to us and IGNORED me completely when i said "HI" and he went straight to aRt and was like smiling and asking this and that.
yeh, it's a he.
and he totally didn't acknowledge my presence there.

alright, i admit, there was a misunderstanding between us before.
but why did it happen?
because of him misunderstanding my words.
because obviously he didn't understand what i said, and worse, he injected his own understanding.
and all i had wanted to do was help bridge a lost connection between friends.
and well, my head was sacrificed in building that bridge, sad to say.

it's been a long time.
and i thought i could move on.
he reminded me of another person, a girl who broke me.
i have to admit she had me very, very fooled.
(she made me think she was my friend)
that she was smarter than me.
she WAS... never again will she BE.
but her misdeeds pointed fingers at ME.
still i thought i could move on.
but it seems i am still paying e price for people's mistakes...misdeeds...

and yeh, his conversation ended with aRt and he said "Bye" and walked off, yep, he said it to aRt, not to me.

paranoid as i am, that wasn't my paranoia.

e irony of this all is...
i still want to care for people.
i still want to help.
i don't want to turn bitter.

maybe i just have to be careful about who i help, but we can never be too careful, can we?
so we live on.
and hope for e best.

i have faith, for i have found some who appreciate my presence.
and for you who know that you cherish me, God-Willing, i will cherish you as much.
and there are some who i cherish in silence for what's to be said can't be said.

bless~

chocolate milkshake and e apple flavoured fog

2006-01-29T02:53:00.000+08:00

doodly dah~!
diddly doo~

hey.
darn my camera's battery was at low power just now.
i have done this for e 2nd time already.
what e friggin' cheetot.
must remember that batteries must be charged!
what did i fink? long-lasting batteries?
that a humongous rabbit is gon' drum its way to powderful batteries?
geez.

well anyvay.
did a comic strip and sent it through good ol' snail mail to a friend for his birthday.
what, Manga? Anime? HENTAI???
no larh.
just a simple one.

had a good day with myaRt.
long time since i had murtabak.
then went to cool off since i got heated up because of two things:
1) realised my camera's batteries dying 2) i rather not mention
Iska dropped by our foggy session.
they talked about guns, i talked about ghosts and we talked about Starbucks.

today's entry is a so-typical-personal-life-entry eh?
well, vat to do.
you don't expect me to be theorical everytime, right?
you do?

oh well.
so what gitu loh?

here are e 2 pictures i managed to scrape through with e dying batteries:

so e neat-lil-beetle

photography.ZEN

keh that's all.btw, i am currently chatting with a long-lost chat partner.and we've chatted more tonight than any other times before when we chatted.

qoolness.

bless~

(p.s: to Leesa, i can be there. don't be afraid to ask yeh? lup many2.)

fish eggs and e chendol-flavoured dessert

2006-01-27T21:41:00.000+08:00

hey.

my cousin got some angpow from her boss just now, so she treated me & myMummy to dinner at Kartini Restaurant, Parkway Parade.

saw Olinda Cho while i was on e way to e restaurant.
always nice to see celebrities who aren't shocked at being called or tapped on e shoulder at by strangers.
how can a celebrity be shocked? please lah.
(celebrity=public figure)
go figure.
and that she smiled and said hi...
Nice.
some of us don't expect more, you know.
but of course, some of us just don't understand that celebrities are humans too.

so what did i eat?
this and that.
you'll be salivating.

so let's skip that.

so hey,
what have you been up to today weh?
anyfing fruitful?
or laz..i..ng e.. day... a..way...?

chocolate strawberry and e raspberry flavoured water

2006-01-26T15:24:00.000+08:00

ohkeh got it done.
here it is.

p.s:
if you read my past entries and there are sudden blanks in btwn sentences,
those words are in black. so just highlight em to read em, 'cos u dont expect me to change every entry right.

all that hassle just for your convenience in my already simple blog???

so what gitu loh.

ouh btw last Friday i went out to have e Tong Seng + Starbucks experience with my two Doinks (i am a Doink too, ok):

Leesa + Iska!

"ehhh...you still don't get it man. e chocolate strawberries costed us $2.50 each, so i paid for your $3.50 meal, meaning i don't owe e dollar, it's you eh"

"ehk............"

thinking "so what gitu loh, i'm e one who gets e strawberries, tee hee!"

have fun matching e dialogue.

10yr dream fulfilled

2006-01-25T13:19:00.000+08:00

Backstreet Boys.

Finally made it to Singapore after 10 years.

You might say they suck, they're just a boyband and old or whatever.

But they are to me, what your ultimate favourite group/band is.

10 years.

before i started praying, before i have found good friends and myaRt, their songs saw me through my lonely nights.

through my puppy loves.

through my life.

it's like almost they are my imaginary friends.

Almost never forgave em for abandoning us in SG for so long.

But of course, all that forgotten at e instance news of their concert HERE was heard.

Brian was e cutest + funniest, Howie was e charming, Nick was e crazy, A.J was e cool and Kevin was e heartfelt one who delivered this touching thought of his with us.

"it's been 10 years, we're from halfway around e world and you're here, singing our songs"

Altogether, they warmed up e stage and our hearts.

Almost like watching people that you know for so long, performing.

Well, it is EXACTLY like that.

e jokes, e smiles, e playfulness and e stellar performances.

they can still dance + sing at e same time, ok?

they sang from all albums.

even had an impromptu performance by A.J.

his voice is really soulful now.

then Nick strapped up, did his thing with e guitar.

Kevin played some keys on e piano.

great, GREAT concert.

just almost unimaginable, indescribable.

a 10 year dream fulfilled, together with JaE + Nadeeya:

(JaE, where have you been in 2005? hmm?)

hee.

and ouh, to end my starstruck night with a spark:

Ari Wibowo.

an experience that's left with just memories...

Sheereen! FINALLY right, BSB. BUT WE GOTTA GET OUR PICTURES TAKEN WITH 'EM e NEXT TIME! and I realise our friendship is almost as long as our 10 year wait. Alhamdullillah.

but a thought for e day:

"barang siapa terlebih bersuka ria, maka berlebih kesedihannya nanti"

(e one that is exceedingly happy, then exceedingly would sadness be)

don't fly too high that you'll drop so hard.

starlight starbright, stars made me starstruck tonight

2006-01-25T00:55:00.000+08:00

starstruck.

woohoo~
update tomorrow.

piggy bank not HALAH leh

2006-01-20T15:39:00.000+08:00

Coffee, Tea & Theories
(money money money...)

"hey so where've you been all day?"
"searching for my present"
"huh? you buy your own present?"
"(laughs) no larh. my friend brought me windowshopping, to pick a gift i wanted"
"wah! what did you pick?"
"(laughs) i picked a $50+ item, jokingly"

-if it was me, i would jokingly pick something WAYYY much more costly. hee-

"then you got it?"
"he said he would save up and buy me e present by next month"
"it's a HE?"
"yeah, why?"

so went my conversation with my 14-yr-old male cousin, when he came back from somewhere after school, during when i was at his house yesterday.
it was his birthday, together with his twin.
it was just heartwarming to hear a 14-yr-old boy talking about a friend who is going to save up for a gift that he wanted.
what a good friend?
i'll decide that when i ask my cousin next month whether he got his gift. hee.
at e same time, i was humored by e innocent mind, telling someone to pick what he wanted.
like you're asking someone, "what do you want?"
ooooouh. DANGEROUS question.
you sure you can give what is wanted?
but then again,
if e person asked, is a good friend too,
what would be asked for wouldn't be overboard.
unless you know you have like 20 people or more sharing for e gift.
or a RICH few.
it all comes down to circumstances.

so how far do we go in telling e truth about what we want?

back to my cousin's story.
ahh, e wonders of being young and saving.
without bills and responsiblities, it is so much easier to save.
hence, start saving since young.
and...
yeh, it was heartwarming, but kinda alarming to know it was a guy friend.
please don't say i am judging.
it just sent off funny thoughts in my mind.
hee.

talking about saving.

have YOU been saving?
i hope you have.
if you haven't, start.
if you can't, try.

i am tryiiiiiiiiiiing.

this has been another session with pandafaRt.

erm...thank you?

2006-01-19T00:22:00.000+08:00

what does "good-looking" really mean?

sorry eh, but i just have to tell you this.
a stranger.
yep, a stranger.
told me i am good-looking.
actually, he kinda like, told my mother in front of me.

prank or what sia?
i almost thought it was Gotcha!.
but e person wasn't pointing at a camera hidden in bushes or anywhere.

yup, e oddity of e day.

guess what i replied when he said that?
"erm...heh"

what e???
FLATTERY GETS YOU NOWHERE...it makes me go HEH?
heh...? mcm kambing, when i am supposed to be e qoo Panda.

wee!

di mana dia, anak kambing saya...

formation of my reformat formatting of my formatted pc

2006-01-18T16:10:00.000+08:00

hi!

i purposely didn't blog for a few days to see how many people missed me.

no larh.

my CPU has been down.
(thanks Iska for e tips)
now it's better than ever!
wooooo.
i hope it stays this way for sometime.
QUITE sometime.

hmm.
was reading my tagboard...
where's a couple of my usual Culprits?
Leesa & Kukubird!
where are youuu...
you don't miss me is it?
'cos i miss you!

and all you other bloggers & taggers.
misshy misshh missshhh.
(mush mussh musshhy)

well this is all i'll be blogging for e moment.
just to let you know...

I AM BACK IN BUSINESS!
what business? don't know.

WATCH AMERICAN IDOL TONIGHT, 7.30pm Ch 5.
Tomorrow 8pm Ch 5.
THE AUDITIONS, always my favourite part of e Idol series.
sooooooo ready to FACE THE MUSIC.hee~
prolly i'll blog again tonight.

prolly finking of changing my blogskin.for fun.
any objections/suggestions?
please, tag.

bless~

here's a favour fulfilled:

11th January 2006

from a boy to a recruit to a man-soon-to-be-soldier.
as e rifle's passed on, so has e responsibility.
as e hand gripped, e heart tightens with anxiety.

ATM. Adnan The Mucus/Adnan The Man.

dah ada bini baru lah nampaknya...

who confirm?

2006-01-08T01:10:00.000+08:00

Coffee, Tea & Theories
(well hello, you.)

GO!

scenario:
you message/call someone.
regarding an event/outing or something else.
"so it's confirmed you're going?"
they answer,
"don't know, if all go, then i go ah"
i mean like.
what if e majority answered like that?

or!!!
you say,
"can't confirm yet because haven't gotten confirmed answers"
they reply,
"who confirm? confirm already then you tell me arh"
when THEY themselves haven't given an answer.
so let me ask you.
if everybody is waiting for everybody else to confirm,
then when is e confirmation going to be made?

you see, it's either you can,cannot or maybe or somefing equivalent.
just answer can, cannot or maybe or somefing equivalent.
if you're asked such a question that requires yes,no or maybe or somefing equivalent,
and you answer "who's going?", "all go i go"...and all those other unnecessary answers...
you imagine e majority of you answering that way.

how e TORT can a confirmation be made?

this has been a session with pandafaRt.
ouh btw, i won 3 games in a row at pool against a guy. i won it fairly, mind you.
i won't say i am skilled but whatever it is i won't forget i did a pool hattrick against a guy.
yay!
and a 4th placing in 6 for bowling.
i will get that 1st/2nd soon.
i must!

mucks Leesa, Chong Fun, Iska, Syadat, Kukubird & aRt.

my people of 2005

2006-01-02T19:38:00.000+08:00

Coffee, Tea & Theories
+
in my opinion; week 4

my life has always been about my

people.

2005 was no exception.

i am tempted to blog about best movies, food, brand and all else pleasure life could offer.

but i choose to blog about people who made e folds in my origami life; made it into a swan full of grace or a plane that just wanted to jet off and leave everything behind.

e following is not in order of e impact you/they made in my life.

and so starts my tribute...

grrlfriends

i have only a few, but a few of these few (wha--)have fulfilled my craves of grrls' day out or at least, a grrl for company in 2005.

in no particular order:

Naatasha, Sheereen, Leesa (you still surprise me), Afiqah.

we're not really THAT tight like some grrlfriends are (Bebe i wish we could have grown together with our friendship, but e latter stayed stagnant. it was good while it lasted tho and i am contented enough we didn't have to end anyfing on a bad term), i don't fink you would want to answer my call at 4am and be willing to hear me cry or blab out my woes but at e moment, i am contented to have you for company, for grrlfriends i wouldnt pass e chance to hang out with/talk about life with/ouh-gle with(hee), if i had e opportunity.

to my other female friends/acquaintances who are reading this,

your presence is appreciated too.

you bring me back to my feminine side.

all you females reading this and you are acquainted with me,

fenk you.

even if you don't like me, and i don't like you,

that's what makes up some feminism right?

meow.

myBoys

who else but myWyteboard?

in no particular order:

Kukubirdie, Cannon, Psycho, Mucus, Black Bear and Chong Fun.

some of you have been there for me during my emotional rollercoaster.

i fink all of you actually.

but only a few who have REALLY gone through it with me.

all of you have been sometimes a pain-in-e-ass(hee) but most times, a blessing.

and i hope i brought some joy to you too.

i apologise if being e only grrl sometimes disrupts e system,

so tell me.

and i'll be more manly.

you know i can.hee.

i wish i can say "i l*v* you" but you'll give me funny looks so i won't.

and myExtended Wyteboard,

you know who you are,

and please know you made a fold in e origami too.

myMummy

i don't fink she would be reading this but i just wanna tell you how strong she is and no matter how many times we argue or misunderstandings we had, i still bury myself in her embrace to endure my hurt and cry out my pain embedded inside my heart.

myGrandma

i miss her.

myaRt

i don't often blog about him.

i don't feel e need to.

i don't see how it could benefit us.

i don't have to conform to e normalities of a new couple.

but it doesn't mean i don't appreciate him,

nor does it mean i don't want people to know i am with someone.

it has been a very TRYING year.

not tiring, TRYING.

patience tried, tolerance tried, relationship tried.

my heart's loyalty was tried.

but all that matters is we're still here now.

he has put an end to my internet dates, weird boyfriends, unrequited love & dark past...

*ugh getting choked up

happy 2nd day of 2006.

2006-01-02T13:43:00.000+08:00

hi.

i prolly should have some posts by now.

but i can't possibly have random posts for e start of 2006.

i'll post good entries, i promise.

uhm,
good by my standards.
if it's not by yours...

so what gitu loh?
(what???some fings won't change weh)

in my opinion; week 3

2005-12-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

i would've loved to take credit for this picture, but i didn't capture it.

but i can do this:

i know e model!!!

haa.

that's Sheereen a.k.a shee gaL

e aspiring drama-mama (stage actress with Teater Kami yo!).

which she sometimes bring out in her real-life persona.

which leads to her being e subject of tease between me & missNaatasha.

more for missNaatasha i fink.

hee.

ouhkeh here's what everybody say about her:

bubbly.friendly

i say she is kepo.

loud.

selenge sometimes.

unpredictable when it comes to meeting her.

suka buih orang.

no just kidding.

just a lil bit kidding.

hee.

why do i still love her?

because i don't forget my pillars.

those who kept me up.

she did, for a while, not much nowadays due to our different paths.

but that while counted.

and this ongoing friendship ultimately counts.

a friendship where less meet-ups don't equal less understanding.

so to my beautiful friend whom i would always love to hang out with,

in my opinion,

this accounts for something.

and just to show off my nephew, Syafiz Izzrul (if you see him i betcha fink he looks like Chicken Little, and cute like that even!):

and this has been another session with pandafaRt.

and then there is 11

2005-12-26T20:04:00.000+08:00

hi everyone!!!

i am proud to announce...
i
am
an
aunt
to
yet
another
niece!

e latest addition to my 6 nephews & 4 nieces.
now i have 6 nephews & 5 nieces.

apa lagi???
combined football team weh!!!

presenting...

Marishka Izzadelle (don't ask me, my bro & wife named her) & me feeling maternal:

marishka heee... marishka haaa... marishka heee... marishka hah!hah!

my another baby's gone back to camp...

a Kukubirdie named Lotus

2005-12-25T01:04:00.000+08:00

And so in amidst of transforming,
pandafaRt seemed to see something visualizing in e smoke.

"a tree?" "eh moving tree? Lord of e Rings???" "but I AM e Lord of e Rings!"

then, it visualized.
and there stood a bushy head attached to e not-so-bushy-body-or-don't-know-lah-never-seen-naked-before, Kukubirdie.

"a Kukubirdie? in here? why eh?"

"haaaiii..."

"what e..."

e Kukubirdie catwalked towards pandafaRt and waved its unusually feminine hand.

"haaaaiii...panda you so cute ow! i..."

"Kukubirdie! how...are you weh?"

"hehehehe. call me Lotus..."

and so started a conversation that led to a Kukubirdie giggling at every wobble pandafaRt makes, and like, euw larh eh?
pandafaRt was angry at what e Black Witch of Markerous Dark did to e once-macho Kukubirdie now e (fill in e blank) Lotus.

so pandafaRt gave 5 curses to KukuLotus to kasi habes e witch,
but blardy hell...
he/she was happy being a Shim (she-him you weeedeeyuts).
and went off.
but not before rubbing some bushy hair from up there, not down there, at pandafaRt's nose, ala "grrly-grrl-kissy-kissy-cheek-cheek-greeting/goodbye".
does e lotus flower smell like kukubird?

so what gitu loh.

oh why this story?
read adi kukubiRdie's blog to find out.

ouh my butt hurts

2005-12-25T00:51:00.000+08:00

hi.

my tummy must be taking revenge on me for complaining about my lack of bowel motions.
i can't even complete this post properly.
weh...

i'll try.

was reading Leesa's blog,
about Tsunami.
well, over a year now but it still is much-talked about.
it made me afraid of being near e sea.
it made me finally wanting to pray.
wanting to appreciate my loved ones.
wanting to make life worthwhile.

i remember somefing that happened while i was at Wild Wild Wet.

there was this area,
this particular activity there that was fun and exciting.
i really was laughing and just letting go.

when i suddenly realised that area is called "Tsunami".
and i suddenly lost zest to continue,
then i just sat down by e side, watching people splash and laugh while e "Tsunami waves" came in currents.
it's such that a certain bell would ring, then e "Tsunami" will start,
meaning e once calm waters will move in fast, strong waves ala "Tsunami".
and i just shuddered at how insensitive i could be.
taking joy in being splashed and tossed around by e waves.
while people have died, homes have been destroyed from e real Tsunami.

i don't know if i'll ever take part in that area of Wild Wild Wet again.
i'm not judging anybody.
it's me, i just feel so wrong. like i wronged.

well so much for serious entries.
hope you lightened up your moment by indulging in my short story/script/dialogue/whatever-you-may-call-it, in "e Kukubirdie named Lotus".

and myaRt's back! yay. 2 days pun 2 days larh.
NAAT? SHEE? yes i was excited. you know i am. "wink.wink."

and so i comply

2005-12-22T21:58:00.000+08:00

and so i comply,
with anna's request,
of me to do this dumdum questionaire,
and thus i will,
not without my own request,
of 5 other people to do it too,
at e end of this questionaire,
and if you're a friend,
you will comply,
even if it seems dumdum to you.

Rules of the game: Post 5 weird/random things about yourself. At the end, list the names of 5 ppl who you want next to do this and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED" in their blogs and tell them to read your blog for rules!

mamak, apa ada?
semua ada!
okehlarh mamak, questionaire satu!

1. i am pandafaRt, but i don't really faRt much. i faRt goooooood. nyeh.
2. i handle e Mushroom Swiss Double @ Burger King in 7 steps.
1) put e top bun to one side
2) sweep all e mushrooms to another side with a french fry (or leave some in e burger)
3) put e top meat to another side of e wrapper
4) put chilli sauce in remaining patty
5) put e top bun on e patty & NGAP! (or dip in more chilli sauce/dips)
6) eat e patty dipped in chilli sauce/dips
7) eat e mushrooms slowly, dipped in chilli sauce & preferable mayonnaise

3. i have a thing for scars. not excessively, just... sexy, suitably-marked scars. hee.
4. i swoon at e sight of good-looking guys wearing white.
5. i have not passed motion for two days and i fink it's gon' be a butt-tearing one tonight.

naat nuT, shee gaL, adi kukubiRdie, azmi tiutiu, myWiccan Leesa
p.s: please post more WEIRD fings about yourself. please please!!!

actually i wanted lots more to do, but gee, if it says 5, 5 larh!!!
but if more people do this,
then more people would be victims.
and we all would live in a fair world.
yay!
and if you fink i am talking nonsense, please read my other entry below.

snappy one-liners i might use on YOU

2005-12-22T21:42:00.000+08:00

hi.

my nephew's pee found its way out of his diapers to my lap just now,
which was tastefully adorned in Levi's jeans.
well i must admit it gave quite a vintage look, people see sand-blown, mud-stained and whatever-nots but are they ready for wet patched???

ouhkeh so whatever.
i just wiped it off.

anyvays.
only 20 and already athritical, if ever such a word.
athritis.
correct me if e spelling's wrong, lazy to check it up.
walk for a few hours & felt e strain.
must drink more miLk.
mummy, nak nyot nyot~
gee what's wrong with me.

ouhkeh so whatever.

what?
you say my entry's crap?

if i wanted your opinion, i would beat e hell out of you to get it.

if i wanted shit, i would squeeze e hell out of your brain.

you talk shit so much it can plant a forest.

p.s: i fink you're prolly just unlucky 'cos obviously you don't know that it's unlucky not to name EVERY ant you see.start from tomorrow.

i'm mean?

so what gitu loh.

ouh, hi Naat & Shee.hee.

(and i am not mean, i got all 'em meany lines from a book.haa)

i'm wild & you're wet

2005-12-19T18:16:00.000+08:00

wild wild wet!

yeh.fun man.
that place down at Downtown East.
what made it more fun were crazy cousins.
and free tickets, free food and nice weather!

i have a lil blushy cheeks now.
it'll disappear soon, i fink.
i don't have pictures to show for...
i mean e trip.

but believe me, doing anything with e right company will be fun fun fun!
anything? that's all to each his/her own opinion of what's "anything" or "everything".

there was this Sky Ride, where u kinda cycle on track above everybody in e water-theme park.
"if someone pees from up there, he/she can say to all e people down there 'i'm wild & you're wet!'"

i was horrified.i thought my cousin who said that would do it himself.euw.

fun fun fun!
next stop...
Jurong!

ouh aRt, aRt... where art thou, aRt?

in my opinion; week 2

2005-12-19T17:30:00.000+08:00

(from your right to e left)

that's me, Leesa n some grrl i don't know.

duh.

no, e grrl is Leesa.

e dolphin was e victim of a marsh attack.

as you can see Leesa finks that e dolphin is real & that dolphins eats marshmellows.

she finks it's funny.

as you can see i was still trying to smile while trying to brush her crazy hand away.

hee.

who IS Leesa?

i would've put her real name but it's beautiful so i rather not.

this is MY BLOG!hmmph.

she is e selaRt to my beetch.

because of her i will bear e burden of e sin of calling someone a degrading term instead of her name.

but we'll soon repent, when we're married and have kids and all, you know?

can't be having em call her Aunt Selart.

(shudder)

well she laughs hysterically.

she is sarcastic.

she has one of e biggest!!!

LARGEST!!!

ENORMOUS!!!

generosity in her heart that shows in her soothing aura.

i don't really know her that long.

really?

i fink coming to 2 years of acquaintance.

but well some months ago then we suddenly miss n love each other and she can't live without me.

hee.

neh...what i mean is i just feel this sense of closeness with her.

like how i felt with a certain JaE before.(hi JaE!)

it's hard for me to get that sister-love feeling, but when i do, i try to strengthen e bond.

it didn't always work out for me, so i'll just do what i do, and wait.

i knew i like Leesa e first time i met her.

sarcastic.noisy.crazy.opinionated.

not offensive,hearty,engaging and interesting.

i thought she had an exotic face.

i still do fink that.

she's an example of big & beautiful.

in more ways than one,

she's a gem of a friend, i am sure, to her best friends.

who can top being a top-notch librarian and listening to Blink182 like mad too?

in my opinion, that should account for something.

Leesa, i hope for our friendship to stay crazy as it is but stronger in time.

and this has been another session with pandafaRt.

new profile awaits, next week, here at shizapanda@blogspot.com.

in my opinion

2005-12-16T18:36:00.000+08:00

e one in e pinky skirt is my sidekick, Afiqah.

she's e blind asthmatic cow to my panda truck driver.

(an inside joke with her, sorry, you won't get e image right, hee)

she is very noisy.

sometimes people tell her to take off her tudung.

she is very apologetic and feels sorry for almost everything.

she finks she's not pretty.

she looks up very highly to her sister and falls down hard doing that.

she is cheeky.

she likes to drool over cute guys.

she is sometimes e butt of jokes/teases.

she feels like she's nothing sometimes.

........................................................

her noise soothes me.

she's noisy but she's not wild nor is she cheap and she, unlike some people, doesn't wear tight-fitting clothes while wearing e tudung. she prays at masjid, go to terawih, and i say, keep e tudung.

she likes to take e blame for almost everything, but i say, our religion teaches us strength & humility and not to bow down to people. so i hope she finds her strength.

about her being not pretty, i don't want to comment. if i say she is, she would say she's not, and i say, beauty is in e eye of e beholder.

her sister is a good example, but i hope she'll learn to be e best of herself rather than imagining how would she be as good as her sister.

her cheekiness matches mine except i don't drool. (hee)

i still fink people tease her because she's adorable, not because she's hated.

and moomoo, you are something.

you're a cheeky blind asthmatic cow.who can top that?

well, in my opinion, that should count for somefing.8)

and this is Teuku Ryan from Indonesia.

my not drool-worthy idol, but heart-melting star...

hey don't judge me, even myaRt says so. and don't judge him...hee

Teuku Ryan is my So What Gitu Loh? answer to Afiqah's Zumi Zola. hee~

so wanna see your name and your profile, in my opinion, in my blog?

tag me.

and this has been another session with pandafaRt.

oh yeh bebeh

2005-12-13T17:24:00.000+08:00

i don't know what's up with my entry headline today.

oh well.
e lemak cili padi crabs were a delish, man.
oh yeh bebeh.

and i've written 6 songs.
oh yeh bebeh.

e Backstreet Boys are coming to town.
oh yeh bebeh.

oh yeh bebeh.
for you Melayu bebehs.
do you realise some Malay people say:
"cuba try"
you know like, you want to try on clothes at a store,
e Malay salesperson go:
"cuba try"
or you looking at some food or sumfing:
again they say:
"cuba try"

then again, you might've not experienced this, well i have.

so if you fink i'm fibbing,
i have 4 words for you.

so what gitu loh.

"It's ok, ladies first"

2005-12-11T15:16:00.000+08:00

Coffee, Tea & Theories
and your host for today, pandafaRt!

hi and i welcome you to another session of
Coffee, Tea & Theories.
so what is it all about today?
i address this to e ladies, but gentle(or not)men, you're welcome to watch.

Chivalry.
you know, ye olden Knights who were gentlemen and all.
that brought about e century old tradition of "Ladies First".
did you stop and fink why is that?

well e morbid side of me thought of this.
so we'll be put in danger first.
maybe all these while we thought e knights were doing our sisters a favour,
when they actually had a hidden agenda.
go first.eat first.walk first.see first.
step into danger first?
so if this is true, we have been made a cuckold out of by those crooked uhms, cocks.
maybe all these years we females have been laughed at!
but, *cough.
it's just a theory.

we still feel flattered by traditional gentlemanly manner, aren't we?

and e humorous side of me thought of this.
(this is concerning 'em asking us to walk ahead first, go up first.)
they ask us to go first because...
they want to look at our butt!
logical innit???

"it's ok, ladies first" and then you comply gratefully.
you don't notice he/they snicker,snicker & look at your booty.

but then again,
who am i to say?

i might add, some of us are flattered our booty is being checked out.

hee.

blardy hell...
that's all i have for you today!
again,
who am i to say?
if you don't like this session i have 4 words for you.

so what gitu loh?

Bands in a Box

2005-12-10T23:30:00.000+08:00

hi.

Bands in a Box @ The Substation was exhilarating!
Blardy brilliant i tell ya.
One of e best gigs ever to be worth my $5, i might add.

and e blardy shocker was,
i still went,
despite being alone.
and i fink today made me improve my socializing skills weh?
got acquainted with some new people along e way amidst e crowd,
and caught up with some old friends.
and even had a phonecall from a dear friend who doesn't know i miss him so.

so i was alone, but wasn't lonely!
hurrah.
and i almost moshed pit my way in.
but i didn't.
ye olden days. no more.

i fink i am gon' be fine in this Now Solo stage,
but i still wish he was with me.

shrunken heart

2005-12-09T22:11:00.000+08:00

It felt cold.

Somewhere a warmth is remembered with much

fondness and crave, but where has the warmth gone to?

Vast clearings aggravated the icy winds that would have frozen if not

for its little doses that yet were enough to cause useless rubbings of arms. The walks

by closed doors led to a step into a bright place with many others who settled down to comfortable plush seating, but where has the warmth gone to?

The closed doors greeted the many faces again moments later. Groups were

dispersed, scattered like wayward thoughts in a winding mind. Amidst the noisy chatter, droopy eyes depicted weary ponder. The cold air was still around, but where has the

warmth gone to?

And finally there, in a certain corner in that cold place, that definite source

of warmth visualized and awaited to be embraced like an oasis of heat in a freezing land. The short moments that followed brought about a surge of warm surroundings that led to

the forgotten coldness. But suddenly time seemed to fast forward and brought me alone amidst a crowd, making my way home with a contracted heart that caused my short

bouts of breathless breathing.

Where has my warmth gone to? The cold place has taken him away. QTB

goodnight, everybody. goodnight...my love.

Teary Madagascar

2005-12-09T14:57:00.000+08:00

hi.

i am home.
eventually, it came down to teary eyes pretending to watch Madagascar last wee morning.
now i am trying to deal.
friggin' harder than e first time. Blardy hell i tell ya.

later.

Underneath E Surface

2005-12-08T12:30:00.000+08:00

e tired fallen falls beneath e Earth's sky...
to rise again, he said to me, i'll try.

underneath e surface.
what lies beneath e surface of so many whom we know but we actually don't?

hello people.
well.
yesterday, i went shopping.
not too much tho.
some essentials.
and to my great delight i found unique stuff to buy.
yay!

gee, this is getting boring.
what people actually blog about?
personal lives...
i try to blog about that but i can't do it everytime.
gee...
so what is this blogger to do?
i guess i'll tell a short story i wrote.
(ehem)

he looks up for answers.
"would there be no sign at all?" he pondered aloud, almost in desperation.
no answers seemed to be coming and his energy was running out of its time.
the breeze levelled dry leaves to his moist eyes.
everywhere he was being seen.
small, big, tiny, round and all other kinds of eyes, which almost all only saw but didn't look for they couldn't understand his presence there.
some flew, some wriggled and some were content moving about the ground where his feet and knee were planted.
he tears at his head like his hair was paper.
"i can't take this anymore!!!" where once he kneeled, he was lying now.
all beings once near him, scuttered now with the sudden thud that crushed leaves and sent some flying, as the observant few might wonder, why was this species this way?
wasn't it just a month ago that it came with another being of its kind, they might recall.
two people.singing.dancing.laughing.moist eyes...somehow the aura was different.

today it was just one.screaming.kneeling.hands to the sky.hands to the head.moist eyes...

but they will soon have stopped wondering and continued their journey, while the dark sky was soon to mourn the pain of the one fallen beneath it.
and they will share together, moist eyes. QTB

Arab St took away my Monday

2005-12-06T14:09:00.000+08:00

hi.

turns out i didn't spend e day alone yesterday.
so here's an entry to fulfill your kpo needs.
in e evening missNaatasha asked me to accompany her to check out a band's (that would be playing at this coming Saturday's gig, Bands in a Box: CHECK OUT "LOCAL GIGS" @tink-a-Links) jamming session.
not bad.
i get a rush seeing female guitarists.
not that i have lesbian tendencies.
hee.
after doing e acting-producer(just me.she's an actual,haa) stint, we head on down to sip some teh at some cafe.
ouhkeh.
here's some juicy information.
e waiter was flirting with us.
and luckily for us, his blond hair suited his face.
(come on, you girls won't mind a good-looking flirter, am i right or am i right?)
and there was one time i was left alone at e table while missNaatasha went to settle e bill.
my seat was directly facing e kitchen.
i was playing with e ice-cream spoons, then i looked up.
saw him looking at me.
and he didn't look away.
and he held e gaze.
like what-e-fish.

"padanlah dia tak dengar bila orang panggil-panggil dia tadi(no wonder he didn't hear them calling him)", missNaatasha informed me of e waiter's distraction when his staff called him after i told her about e held-gaze incident, which she swiftly saved me from with her appropriate arrival.

sometimes i tend to blush easily.

i still blush around myaRt. who came to fetch me at night.
whom i spent walking e night with after bidding farewell to missNaatasha.
for e first time in so long, we passed Tong Seng at Bugis.
passed, didn't go in to eat because we had already eaten at home.
then we walked on water.
e Esplanade fountain lah.

while he was talking i was secretly finking how would i be living after this Friday.

it takes one realization to see how much of him is in my life.
but i am still guilty of having this one special space in my heart for someone who doesn't love me.

i've stopped trying to forget.

Monday Blues & Dulls

2005-12-05T14:40:00.000+08:00

Coffee, Tea & Theories
or is it?

hi.

i am prolly gon' be home alone e whole day today.
or let's just put this as: alone.

it's a dark, cloudy day...
e rain accompanies my lonely heart.
bla bla bla...
e usual emo-blog during rainy days/silent nights.
"i feel so alone", "i feel down", or e ever so popular:
"i feel so depressed".
i am not spared e syndrome.

did i mention i'm gon' be alone?
so yeh. prolly i would blog up some stuff/updates.
honestly i really am not a fan of posting what i did today, yesterday or anyday except if it's really something i have to tell.
but reading others' blogs sometimes,
and realizing i loved reading about their daily life(sometimes) too,
do i realize that people in Singapore just wants to read gossip.
including I.

who are we kidding?
we're never gon be into political blogs.
we read newspapers for that.
who are we kidding...
are we all even interested in politics...
are we all even interested in making changes,
other than complain...complain...complain...?
do we really have e courage & determination to make a powderful, n yes i meant powerful, blog that would change lives?

maybe some of us.
i don't know.

so what gitu loh?
at e moment i'm more inclined to post about e wrongdoings being done to me.
or should i post about how i feel like crying?
or maybe how disappointed i am?

i don't know.
i'll be back later.
i don't even know if you wanna read my entries.
so basically, i'm conversing with myself.
which is alright, considering i can answer my own questions & blame myself if something's wrong or HURT myself if i am angry.nyeheheh.depressing.

later.

"Hath been We"

2005-12-01T22:37:00.000+08:00

this is for e romantics.
P.S: please read e IMPORTANT entry before(e entry below lah dumdum) this poetic post.

"Hath been We"
(thanks to Mimi for reminding me that i love to write poetry, and here's a piece)

the mystery of it all
thou e cause of my fall
amidst finding myself i found thee
for thy wast lost in my reverie
between exchanges by Sun and Moon
Truth wast not too soon
between formality between strangers
who couldst predict; not I, not thee, Lover
shalt we pursue, is it not Danger;
shalt we discontinue, is it not in Favour;
upon a Red Bed i departed thy name
with each life of it, e next never e same
new Realm as it is, tangle my nerves
quench my thirst with e cup i'm served
thou wast an addition, now a character
doth shalt i name my new chapter?
in thee; shalt i a cure, begotten
in us; shalt i my ill, forgotten
for I, for thee, we wast not aware
it hath always been, it hath always bear
Fate, that slipped us gingerly by
For it hath always been thee;
as it hath always been I.
-QTB

bite, at your own unoriginality.

this for e non-taggers of friends, yo

2005-12-01T22:21:00.000+08:00

seriously.
non-taggers.
why DON'T you tag?
DON'T ask, "why must i?"
come on, make known your presence.
especially if you know me.let me put this as FRIENDS.
those who actually hang with me and have reason to read my blogs to understand me.
i don't believe you don't have opinions, yo.
help make this blog an interactive one.
especially those who tag at other blogs except mine.
or those i tag but don't tag me.
do you or they even read my blog?
if you or they don't read my blog.
if you or they don't tag my blog.
WHY SHOULD I DO BOTH FOR YOU OR THEIRS?
why e dilly am i even in e Links.what shayt is this.
blardy hell...
speaking of which,i don't read some of e blogs in my Links either.
so what e dilly?
maybe i'll delete some in a month.
those who don't read mine,and those whom i don't read theirs.
maybe.
gee.
why am i making a fuss outta this?
and why MAYBE i'll delete?

PMS, yo.
i might change my mind.
i might be nicer.
might even be badder.
deal with that.
yo.

another dream

2005-11-29T00:04:00.000+08:00

a walk...
sharing snacks...
movie... Daniel Radcliffe's smile is so cute.gee.
dinner...
laughs...

holding hands...

simple, but still a dream.

we were left giggly, he & i.

and so it is

2005-11-28T11:39:00.000+08:00

"...aku gembira dapat bertemu dengannya. hanya kelakuan ku dapat menerangkan perasaanku terpendam, namun masih, tidak dapat mengukir.

disitu adanya dia, dalam pakaian biasanya, terukir senyuman dan ketenangan yang hanya membuat ku mendakapnya lebih erat.

dia datang untuk melawat, hatiku mendengar hatinya.

aku gembira dia disini, harapanku hatinya mendengar hatiku.

hari-hari yang mendatang bagai mimpi.

ia pun berlaku.

hari ini yang terakhir akan ku ditemuinya, ku mohon hatinya tidak ungkapkan.

tetapi kata sudah hatinya.

airmataku tidak dapat menahan kepergiannya,

dan tiba-tiba ku mendapati diriku di lapangan terbang yang kosong.

telah ku menghantarnya pergi dengan hati yang berat...sungguh berat."

"...i was ecstatic to see her. only my actions could explain e emotions i feel inside, but still, not measure. there she was, in her usual clothes, all smiles & serene that made me only hold on tighter.

she's come to visit, my heart heard hers.

i'm glad she's here, i hope her heart heard mine.

e few days went by like a dream.

then it happened.

today is e last day she'll ever see me, i wished her heart hadn't said.

but it did.

not even my tears could stop her from leaving,

as i suddenly found myself at e empty airport.

i had sent her off with a heavy...heavy...heart."

dan ku terbangun, bertekad untuk melawatnya.

and i awakened, determined to visit her.

kebenaran memberi ku tamparan di muka.

e truth slapped me on my face.

ia bukan BAGAI mimpi.

ia MEMANG mimpi.

it wasn't LIKE a dream.

it was A dream.

tetapi memang nenek telah pergi.

but grandma's really gone.

dengan hati penuh kerinduan, ku terserah, redha.

in e two days

2005-11-27T00:06:00.000+08:00

Hello.

some kaypoh or let's say avid reader-bloghoppers wanna read instead of see.

so i'll start doing some entries too.

i won't say so what gitu loh,

'cos if blogs aren't meant for our hoppers,

then might as well restrict it yah?

here's an update of e two days, Friday & today Saturday:

yesterday was spent with Wyteboard & Friends.

here's e total attendance:

14 people!

and to those who helped in e picture taking, or had e intention to.

Tenjiu...

after e picture session, we went to Tong Seng where again i enjoyed my bowl of Sliced Fish Soup...this is a constant i might not change for a while.hee.

then we went to Esplanade, where else...BUT!

it was a fruitful trip, there was an Indo native music gig.qoo!

crapped around a while, then went home feeling pooped.

Leesa jangan serik2 yeh?but tahan dgn a couple of e mentel ones, ynawhoimean.

here's an update of earlier today:

out with my ITE SC mates & then some.

well waited for an hour plus.

but what do you expect from janji melayu?

went to e revamped Marina Sq and had dinner @ Cavana.

man, that place has changed.both Marina Sq & Cavana.

Cavana's prices have gone up.gee.

went bowling after that.

i seem to enjoy bowling eh?haa.

yeh and i defeated a guy.

VICTORY!

not much to tell 'xept it was nice to see 'em again.

only one part not so nice when someone bersalaman with all e girls.

'xept me.

gee.i fink i must be disliked huh?

either that, or i make people shy.

either way...

so what gitu loh?

Sand, Stone & Squish Experience

2005-11-25T12:07:00.000+08:00

it was a good day yesterday.
prayed for it not to rain, miraculously it didn't.
alhamdullillah.
'cos yesterday i brought my lil cousin to Pasir Ris Park,
since she is sleeping over at my house for e holidays.
i wouldn't want her holidays to be burnt.
so yeh, Ain(her name), myMami, myaRt & I,
we went for a picnic!
which was first accompanied by muddied slippers and dotted calves.
(MyMami is an expert, had only but a few specks at e side of her slippers.)

i was supposed to jog.
but guess what i was persuaded into?
sand-castle building.
i made a Panda Island.hee.
aRt & ain made sandy waffles & ice-cream.haa.
but e most crazy experience happened to me,
while we were picking shells & stones around e shore.

my finger suddenly poked something squishy,
and i jumped!
what was it to be, but a jellyfish(a lovely pinky-blue one)!!!
we joked about how it came out to send a message.
"Oi! Pain arh. Stop throwing those stones!"
we were throwing stones into e sea, ala stones tipping on e water surface more than once before dropping into e sea.
i got to touch its squishy head.
luckily not its squishy tentacles.
and i felt like a heroine, warning of its presence to my 2 fellow sand-castle builders.
Allah swt really blessed me yesterday.
(no pictures to account for... can't risk bringing e cam out to sea, hee)
but here are a couple of after-pictures:

myMami

my 3 dearest

Weapon of Mass Visualization

2005-11-24T12:07:00.001+08:00

e final destination we unleashed e Weapon yesterday:

Masjid Sultan, which started from a journey of

lunch near the alley:

most of you know where this is, guess

appreciating e less appreciated:

please be more appreciative

catching an interesting sight:

e stitched up dump; even dumps have scars to tell of

catching e paper building:

on the way to Gateway

stopping at e traffic:

Gateway awaits

posing for e moment:

a pictorial aRt

saying hi to our public facilities:

meet Mr Green Bin

looking at street signs & buses:

welcome to Arab Street, where we would've soon reach Masjid Sultan

getting purrry over a stray:

this scruffy cat loved to pose (mew, lol Iska)

sippin' e teh:

what best to end a tiring day than a soothing teh halia, courtesy of Sultan Cafe

emptyin' e teh to e last drop...

...and e last of our journey, here's an irony:

we went trigger-happy, he & I.

trigger-happy tendencies

2005-11-20T01:13:00.000+08:00

i thought i'll just paste more pictures instead of words at the moment.

i'll be M.I.A for about 3 days.

please.miss.me

i don't know...sometimes i am so tired to take pictures but i wanna

and sometimes i see dead people

friends make me look away from blinding flashes of life

but other nights, i dim in brightness.

it's the nights that i fear.

blogging to you again in about 3 days' time.

Strawberry Garlands

2005-11-18T13:30:00.000+08:00

please don't let this picture circulate around e WWF network

someone's stealing my WONKA MUDSLUDGE!

i was looking at e chocolate stealer, Mr X

(clockwise from left:pandafaRt,aRt,isKa,Leesa)

finally met up with Leesa...Tong Seng was heaven and i had my Sliced Fish Soup(Leesa, there's life beyond chicken(rice)).Iska had a bout of (un)Force(d) Vomit(s)...and asked for soury sweets.

(ouh?)

Starbucks was a riot.

asked:

"For your 1st night,btwn chocolate/strawberry/whipped cream,which would you choose & why?"

replied:

"Strawberry,i'll cut e leaves & and scoop out the insides of the strawberry,a BIG strawberry..."

thus, Strawberry Garlands.

i won't go into detail this part of e Truth or Dare we played.(haa)

you are pissed?

can't fulfil your kaypoh needs?

SO WHAT GITU LOH?

sparkGrrLing fun times with myGrrLs

2005-11-15T16:22:00.000+08:00

doesn't this remind you of a KOTEX advertisement? haa!

we got bored and contemplated mangling the strangely-happy victim

we decided not to, the ex-victim being strangely-disappointed

i was smiling at a speed camera

this was last Saturday, where i met up with my secondary school galmates at one of em's open house event. i do believe secondary school was the place i really made FRIENDS, though i am not excluding my other friends post-secondary. back to the issue, sec sch friends = people whom i might not often see, but always have common grounds amidst our differences when we meet up. and we still bitch about each other. openly. of course. hee. SparkGRRLing Fun Times! (do i feel pressured surrounded by babes for friends? of course not.(mmmm hee))

and to end the pictures of the budak-budak bawah block, i present to you:

absolutely sparkGrrLing, dahlings!

(anti clockwise from left: Dee, pandafaRt, Ida, Jee, Wati)

SALAM AIDILFITRI

2005-11-02T16:29:00.000+08:00

Ramadhan Beckons Syawal

2005-11-02T15:56:00.000+08:00

Coffee, Tea & Theories
impossible not to have one about Ramadhan.i am gon' miss Ramadhan...

Free bubur & nasi briyani during Ramadhan

my aunt was lining up to get the free Asyura porridge.
this bubur, of course, is given away during the fasting month.
well then here's what happened.
she realized that there were many Chinese queuing up too.
no problems with that.
what she had a problem with is that to the extent there was this little Malay-presumably-Muslim-but-that-is-another-issue boy who couldn't get his bubur because there were none left.

i know we're multi-racial/religion & stuff, but i hope that priority would be given to Muslims.
frankly wondered, out of the maybe 50 Chinese, ALL are Muslims?
we can have a dividend, like this side's for Muslims, that's for non-Muslims.
(those who lie, God help them)
i believe if our non-Muslim fellowmen are really gracious, they would understand.
MUIS is trying to bring out the message that Islam welcomes everyone.
well, of course it does, which bonafide religion doesn't?
but we need to prioritise.
the word is Prioritise.
even the event of Islamic Restaurant giving away free briyani, Berita Suria was covering it, and out of four groups, 3 were Chinese.
i don't know why i felt funny at that.
maybe due to the fact we're still called the minority,
but we have to provide for many.
my guess is sponsors.
Sponsors.
even Geylang's lighting up event.(plus the pathetic narrow pathways that were closed)
Lanterns?
Sponsors, maybe.
if true, i hope in the future sponsors would be kind enough to sponsor and just have their logos shown, and not confine the sponsored to abide by their culture fancies.

one note doesn't make a harmony.
as so Racial/Religious harmony.
understanding & acceptance make beautiful music in our hearts.

but who am i to say?

and with that,

our last iftar is about 2 hours away...

Selamat DeepaRaya! Maaf Zahir & Batin.
jangan lupa yang tiada.
any offence taken due to my entries/conversation/actions,
find it in your heart to forgive me, even if only for Syawal.

if you won't,

SO WHAT GITU LOH?

BowLing Illustrated

2005-10-30T14:16:00.000+08:00

KukubiRdie & pandafaRt

the "Open Daily 10am to 3am" is not referring to our uhm,legs. Don't get ideas now.

Kude, KukubiRdie, Bear

Kude & Bear attempted to bowL 99kg of KukubiRdie.

to no success, of course.

Seth Cohen?

Zach Braff?

ooh la la, it's aRt a.k.a aRtnab!

Spot the Chong Fun & the Chin Chong.

Wyteboard & Friends!

Wyteboard, finally an old school reunion with the original members. And thank you friends for coming! All together now,

RUB SAMA DIA!

Ballet Bowling?

2005-10-30T00:08:00.000+08:00

Hello Citizens of Blogville!

i had fun today.
my tummy first, thanks to Tong Seng's Sliced Fish Soup.
then my hands, feet and body.
bowling seh!
the last time i bowled was when i was a kiddo?
over about 10 years ago?
so imagine the jitters i had just now.

#btw bowling at Marina Square is quite cheap.$4.90 per pax(incl. shoe),
$4.60(also incl. shoe) with SAFRA card#

well, i just went for it.
and wahey!
not bad uhs.started to get the hang of it.
but of course,the guys played better.
i guess i was just too giddy with excitement.
but i got one strike!!! afterwhich i punched my fists in the air and made peace sign.
feeling mcm champion.

then some pictures were viewed,
and mine caused some hoo-haa.

sumfin i did made them call me Ballet Bowler.
figure that out uhs...
but, Fun Fun Fun, Wyteboard & Friends!
guys, funny coincidence that Chong Fun & Chin Chong got the red black shoes,
and Members & Friends got the yellow green ones. hyak hyak...
That's all folks!

amidst loud excitement surrounded with joy, i realised i am losing something again.
or have lost it... a bond. someone.

Help, or (HELL)PP!?

2005-10-26T13:34:00.000+08:00

SO WHAT GITU LOH? PART 2
loh punya mobil mahal import...

Coffee, Tea & Theories
wah 2nd session weh?

can't help it.
this is how i blog i suppose.
sumfin comes to mind, go go go!
nuffin?
don't go lah! dum dum

anyvays.
Help, or (HELL)PP!?
here it is centred around helping your friends do sumfin.
the good morals taught us to be helpful.
but when does help turns into (hell)p?
when does your gesture seems like arrogance?
like a know-it-all?
of course, you are there finking you're doing a good deed.
kongsi ilmu.share the knowledge.
(this applies to the sincere helpers.)
but what do THEY fink?
yes, as you might know,
some people will fink we are being arrogant,
overtaking THEIR duties and is meddling.
Ouch weh.
but when you don't help?
if they're happy, ok ah.
but if they still complain?
gee.
no matter how you go about it, it sticks.

yes, Your Humble Narrator has gone through this.
sumfin like, i'm younger so i don't know more?
sumfin like, i'm showing off?
sumfin like, i'm not needed?
SO WHAT GITU LOH?

and some of em are plain blardy rude.
or the smiley-stab-you-in-the-back-kinda.<---ouhhhh worst!!!

especially if you're a senior in some club or sumfin.
if you don't feel appreciated,
just leave the new generation be.

the less sensitive we are to irrelevant fings,
the less problems we have.
so to be less sensitive,
avoid the people who only makes you feel low.

try.

seriously refinking of shuffling whatever contacts-based account i have.
but it will be too obvious right?
to the people, maybe to even you *smiles*

but,
who am i to say?

So What Gitu Loh Part 1

2005-10-25T15:18:00.000+08:00

Why is my blog so green?
Because i like the colour green.
And Hari Raya is coming.
So, green.

Coffee, Tea & Theories
it's backkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

A long time since i last had a coffee-tea theory session.

GRRLS, FOOD & MOTHER NATURE

We've all ever come across grrls who won't finish their food.
Some of them really can't, some of them just won't.
Me?
I've been teased about being able to finish my food,
simply because i am chubby.
"Reen mesti boleh habisnya", "Tak leh habis kasi Reen",
etc.
Benefit of non-malays, the above sentences just means they say i am supposed to finish my food, and others' food too.
Oh they don't apply to everybody who says them. I know when to catch a sarcasm.
Usually these are the same people, the ones who tease, are the ones who are pestering me to eat less.
I wouldn't expect less than a contradictory character.
Used to take offence, BIG offence(pun not intended), in this.
Nowadays...
SO WHAT GITU LOH?

Being able to finish your food is an appreciation for the poor, & Mother Nature.
You there, having good food, and not finishing it, while they would like to have even a little of the leftovers.
You there, animals killed so you could have meat, leaves taken from plants so you could have vegetables, and you won't finish it?

And some people.
They have money to throw around.
Buy this.Buy that.Buy buy buy food.
But buyin more than they could eat.
Or buy this.buy that.then B.A.T.A.
Buy And Throw Away.

but,
who am i to say?

When the last animal is killed, the last tree being cut down, and the last drop of water has dried, then we'll know money cannot be eaten. QTB

By the way eh, make sure you finish your food,
not finish others' food without permission, or worse,
eating without finking whether others have eaten.
bak kata, ingat orang belakang.

What have we done in Ramadhan?

2005-10-17T21:36:00.000+08:00

we're well in the middle of Ramadhan, aren't we?

so what have you done, my fellow Muslim?
did you leave your sins for this month,
and bade forgive for the past?

so what have you done, my fellow Muslim?
refrain from eating as per normal,
yet did too, refrain from sinning per normal?

so what have you done, my fellow Muslim?
lived for this month,
to forget the next?

so what are we,
will we,
would we
be doing?
Before.During.After Ramadhan?

Dreams...& About Me

2005-10-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

Had quite the strange dream.
Well, it wasn't really strange.
It was a happy dream...
One part of it, i partly am disappointed it was a dream,
but my another part is relieved. Ambivalent, as usual.
But another side of the dream, i really really wish it is true.
or would be true.

well that's that yah.

Okeh!Coming up in my blog now,is sumfin sorta common i suppose,
but sometimes you just HAFTA have some kind of relation to the mass,
so you'll know what ticks.tick tock tick tock.
(LEESA...this one's for you, apart from the fact i don't have any good entries to post up at the moment,hee.)

10 years ago
I was in primary school...The start of my tomboyish tendencies.Short hair,soccer,spiders & grasshoppers & all things boys boys boys.I preferred to be boyish but i still had this major crush on this cutie.Who was wayyy shorter than me,and still is.Stress-free days...
A stage enthusiast.An unwilling teacher's pet.I reckon i was both envied & disliked.
But then again, stress-free days... And when i started to become chubby.
5 years ago
Bye-bye tomboy,hello young lady.This was my most feminine period,and the most suitors i had,i fink.Always wondered how i managed that despite being chubby amidst a pool of babes.Still had much more guy friends than gal friends.Oh yah,my Eminem era.I was called Reen Shady... wottttttttt.And the beginning of black-rim glasses.Still a stage enthusiast.
1 year ago
Rapping & grattifying like i was some hiphopper,then somehow got in a band.The most hectic in my life...Stage, Stardom,ITE...most of all,Student Council.One of the best & worst moments of my life so far...Student Council.I love the Student Council back then...love some people... When I fink of 1 year ago,all i fink of is Student Council.
Student Council.
Yesterday
I heard one name i didn't wanna hear,and i had to refrain from shouting vulgarity.
5 snacks i enjoy
Meiji(especially Strawberry) Yoghurt...err.Hello Panda.Mitsuya Tasty Sticks.Raisins.
Kuaci!
5 songs i know all the words to
Most of Backstreet Boys' songs(too many but i'll put that under one category,haa).
Nasi Goreng Daging Kambing - Project Pop.
The Widow - The Mars Volta.
Belaian Jiwa - Innuendo.(so many people sing this,how NOT to know.hee)
The BARNEY song?k seriously...
Bittersweet - aRt
5 things i'll do with a 100 million dollars
Wow so many!many!money!
Seriously don't know man.
I mean, 100 mil?? Gotta plan out.
For charity, my loved ones & I.
but haven't you heard? Mo' money, mo problems.
Robbers, & people/relatives you didn't know you had.
5 places i would run away to
Hmm.
Wherever my loved ones would be.
And if they're the ones i am running from,
then i wouldn't know where to go...
5 things i would never wear
i would wear anyfing for a good cause.hee.
but seriously,no men's briefs.haa haa.
bikini.clothes with just enuff space to breathe.
hotpants.killer heels.
5 favourite tv shows
Whose line is it anyway?
America's Next Top Model
Ikhlas (Indo drama)
The Peacemaker (anime)
Discovery Channel China Special - Panda Nursery
5 bad habits
Why must i tell you!
(i will, anyvay.)
biting nails.high-pitched ant voice.clicking tongue.slouching.blogging.(hee)
5 biggest joys
Getting to hold babies.
Able to fulfil the 5 prayer times.
Spending time in good company.
Failing, then succeeding.
Love... Love may hurt... But it's a joy to love,to be loved.
5 favourite toys
Ouhhh.toys...hehs.dil..do we have kids reading?hee.
myCrazyPanda(squishy keychain).i loved Barbie & Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle figurines.
the cooking set.and some people's arm & leg hair.hee.
5 favourite places
Tong Seng.Kinokuniya.Times.Arab/Bussorah St.and the North side of SG.
5 favourite food
Sliced fish soup @ Tong Seng, NASI AYAM (hee Leesa) @ Banquet Simei & Harbourfront,
Nasi Jenganan @ Century Square, fried Gizzards & bamboo leaves..hee.long beans.
5 favourite drinks
Minute Maid Lemonade.Teh-O.Milk.Mineral water.Teh halia @As-Salihin!
5 fictional characters i would date
Willy Wonka.J.D from Scrubs.Inuyasha(anime).Reza from Ikhlas.Mr.Smith.hee.
5 people i would tag to do this
I am not even sure anybody except Leesa would read this, so nada!

I got to hold some handsome stranger's baby just now.So kiuk,like Dutch.
Eh Leesa i saw her,i thought of you.Kemerahan skin.Took a pix of her.hehs.
Not a pix of the dad tho.haa haa